One of My Worst Days...

So yesterday was one of my worst days evarrrrr. It started off nicely but soon went downhill.

Drivers' Ed was good. I sit next to this chick named Aurora (I freakin' love that name) and she's cool. During the class, I did a wonderful thing. I'm an outgoing person and I like to meet new people. The chick who sits next to me and the guys around us were working on our worksheets together and I was randomly throwing my two-sense in, giving and asking for answers. Nobody was talking to me and they didn't respond when I talked, so I thought to myself: They have their group of friends and they don't know me. I'm outgoing and insert myself into social situations. I'm going to sit here and do my homework because I'm not part of their group of friends. It's not that they don't like me, they just don't know me.

You may think this is kind of like, "Duh?" but for me, this is a big thing. I used to think: I'm not in their group, so they must not like me. They didn't try to include me so I must be ugly and a bad person.

You may think that way of thinking is stupid, but it's honestly how I thought about things. No wonder I had panic attacks, right? Well, anyway, that was a major success. ((:

I went to Panda's house and was hanging out. I'd been a little anxious all day, but not horribly. However, I had a humongo-jumbo panic attack. It lasted a full three and a half hours.

I started having a panic attack around three thirty and it lasted until like, seven thirty. It was freakin' horrible. I couldn't control my body. I was almost convulsing and it hurt like hell. Long story short, I was exhausted when I got home. I was having it rough.

When I woke up this morning, I was all better, even if I was a little tired.

Now, I have some Adavan (sp?) and when I have a bad panic attack that I can't control, I can take an Adavan! :D

But I'm like, multi-tasking on an epick