I'm supposed to be writing a paper... Oh well :D

Holaaaa!

I'm hyper. My nighttime meds make me sleepy, and without them I have a hard time sleeping. Last night, I forgot my meds. >.> Oops. xD Oh well. So I didn't get much sleep and I'm hyper.

Anywhoozle, very eventful past couple of days.

First, we moved. We moved from a good sized town to a rinky dink town twenty minutes away. The reasons are these: Our land lord was being mean and wanted to make us sign a year lease. We don't want to sign any leases, so we moved in with my Uncle. Granted, we have more space, and that is very nice. I want my own place. I miss having a place of our own that we can remodel and paint and make it our own that we'll be there for a long time.

That was slightly traumatic, plus I was on my period. Not. Fun.

Event number two: I tried to break up with Mitch. Note "tried". I was uber anxious ALL DAY. And then after school, I did it. Around six or seven o'clock, he called me. "Do you have a minute?" "Sure..." "Why?" ...Shit.

We talked and I have this problem... When people give me like, good reasons why to do stuff or not to do stuff, I can be persuaded. I like to think of myself as open-minded. I'm not, however, afraid to make my own opinions. All I'm saying is that I can change my mind. And I did.

Go figure tough guy boyfriend isn't really all that tough. Big surprise. I knew he was a softie, but having him admit it was quite nice. ((:

So, we're together. Honestly, I don't know how long it'll last, but I'm sooo willing to try. <3

I haven't talked to Dad recently, but I totally miss him. ): I want a Daddy hug. He'd probably say "Well then, come get one!" but the problem with that is: the hug would have strings attached. )): Eventually, I'll be able to deal with the strings, but I don't think I am right now. Until then, I'll miss him from afar.

I have been making progress, mental health wise. I am (finally) able to separate my emotions from other people. I no longer feel the need to feel what everyone else is feeling, just because they're feeling it. I'm not dragged down by their bad moods, or feel falsely happy when I really feel like shit. Also, I'm able to think through my debilitating thoughts... you know, the ones that cause panic attacks. =P I can dissect those and figure out why I feel that way, the evidence that supports the bad feeling, and the evidence that contradicts the bad thoughts. Is loooovely. ((:

So, I'm thinking my next post will detail some of my feelings that I have when I'm depressed and anxious. Looking forward to it. I guess this is it.

The teary goodbye will have to wait, because honestly, I don't think anyone reads this. ...Maybe they will if I post it on Facebook? :D

So long, farewell, to you my friends. Goodbye for now, until we meet again. It's been great, discussing these things together, (here on blogspot) But now it's time to say good bye. So long, farewell, to you my friends. Goodbye for now, until we meet agaaaaaaain!